THIS LIFE SUCKS.
ShiShi said " AIYA HE STILL HAS FEELINGS FOR HER LA. "
but should i believe her?
maybe im too younq to qo into a relationship.
maybe im just not ready.
right now i dont really trust love anymore,
and its all HIS fault.
for once i was tiongxim and he had to break up.
i told myself. all quys are like tht.
but is he like tht?
maybe he still lyks her.
i dont feel lyk livinq anymore kay.
this life sucks.
cant i just die?
i really felt lyk jmping down th building just now in sch.
i wanna die.

quick post before i qo offline and sleep,
i dunno why but i feel so useless today.
why is it tht i feel so useless,
i can't even be a qood stead to zhendonq,
i dont even have time for my hw alr.
projects are cominq in lyk siao,
and is lyk.
i have trng 3 tyms a week and
ballet lyk 4 tyms a week?
i dont even have tym for hw alr.
much less any time to pei you.
im sorry if i have been such a bad stead to you.
you said tht you nv thought tht i was one,
but in my heart,
i will always feel lyk i've nv been one,
i always fail.
im such a failure.
i can't do anythinq riqht.
or maybe i just set my hopes up too hiqh,
dhen when i can't reach it,
i just come cryinq.
im sorry zhendonq,
im not fit to be your qirlfriend,
im not fit to be anyone's qirlfriend.
im so useless.
im stupid.
i can't even pass any subjects in sch.
i dont feel lyk livinq in this world anymore.
maybe i'll just slash my neck and die,
dhen all my worries will disappear.
i really dont feel lyk livinq anymore.
im sorry if i have been a nuisance to anybody.
*POOF*